.:Sunday, May 10, 2009:.
Sometimes, the Truth Hurts
 Every Sunday, I visit the Postsecret blog to see the new secrets. I'm not sure that I ever ran across one that I really believed could have been written for me specifically. Until today. The past couple of months have been hard enough honestly. March and April always are incredibly difficult since Isabel was born in one month and received her wings the next. Everyday is hard. There has never been a day that passes that I don't think of her, miss her and pray for her. Those months are just slightly harder....if that is even possible. I don't believe that there is any worse pain that a person can endure with the one exception of losing a life-long spouse. Even now, I can't explain why those pictures were so important to me. Other than to say that I wanted every moment captured that I could. I knew that I would never be able to take another picture again and I didn't have nearly enough yet. I suppose the same could be said for the day that her body had to be moved to another site as well. Crazy? With her death, any part of me that was sane before losing her surely secured the fact that I didn't have a sane bone left in my body. It was written, "I wish I understood what you are going through, but I don't". I'm so thankful that you don't. I pray that you never do understand. Always remember to love and love hard. Everyday is a gift, not a right and it could all be over within the next few minutes. Take advantage of every minute that you have. |
